I think I will move blog soon.. Or make this one private...  Or maybe I'll create another one, make that private, and keep both running...

One to post my private thoughts, where I will invite only people I trust, and one for everyone... This way, I can blog all my thoughts without being afraid... And yet keep everyone updated about my daily life... Yeah, I think the 2 blogs idea is a good one... Don't come asking me for my private blog address, because it'll look bad if I don't give you, but if I give it to everyone, it'll be pointless.. I'll be limited about what I can or cannot post again... I might as well just keep a written diary...


Now, the written diary is looking good to me too... Hmmm...


Since I've touched that topic, might as well blog about it too, just to let people know...

I don't know how to say no... I know how to disagree, but I hate having to say no to anyone... It's like, I'm being a pushover... Or rather, I don't like to say no...

I hate apologies too... It's not because apologies meant that someone did something wrong to me again, because I already know that people will hurt you, even for no reasons at all... I hate apologies because I don't know how to react to them... In my heart, I might be going, "F*ck you, who wants your apologies, you two-faced serpent!", but my traitorous mouth will go, "Nvm... It's ok...", because what else am I supposed to say? Not accepting apologies turns the fault on myself, and makes me look bad even if I wasn't originally at fault... So, I'm forced to accept it... Obviously, this chain of thoughts goes for apologies beyond being late (unless chronologically), or accidental stuff... It's like, insulting me, then apologizing...