I can't believe this, but get it or not, I am stressed...

I am usually so carefree and happy-go-lucky that stress is always such a distanced word... One that I'd never think would apply to me...

Even when going through the bad patch in my life, I was never stressed... Sadness, impatience, hatred, regrets, yes... Stress? No... Not even when studying, or having exams...

No wonder I had always avoided subjects like these...

In addition to that, FYP... I don't mind failing that, and had already given up once before... But then, my team mates seemed to have persevered, so I decided to start again... But I can't take it... Stress over that, and then to clear my mind to do coding... Usually in school, I'm able to code because it's the one goal to reach before the end of class, and even with amusing disturbance from classmates, it's still alright for me to reach the goal... It is governed, and I'm able to stay on track... But this working from home? I should never try this again...

I know that I'm ill disciplined in the matters of determination, in matters of sticking to my plans, and in matters of opening up to share... But, I've no idea how to solve this... Maybe in the last point, I'm getting better and better, as I've been confiding in Shou, and 3 other people... But seriously, I've regretted doing so in one of them...

Shou is the best!!! Cuz she don't really know anyone I'm stressing over, and have my utmost confidence... Haha...

Anyway, got to go to school already... I'm late again... I wonder where my punctuality from primary and secondary school went to...